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Most of my life was no different than any other individual just trying to fit in and stay in where I felt I would be my best.  Living like this resulted in me becoming a person with no values, no respect and no foundation.  My life was built on drugs, alcohol and crime.  Most importantly, I had no love.I made many choices this time of my life that caused broken relationships and heartache.  But I did not care.  All I focused on was what I enjoyed and who I enjoyed it with.  Each time that I felt that I was not enough or I felt that I needed more, I came up with my solutions to make everything better.  This only led to more cracks and breaks in my life and especially those around me.  To the world I was wonderful living alongside them.  Over time I had become an alcoholic, cocaine addict, and an addict of whatever made me feel good.  By any means necessary I was going to get what I wanted for that day even if it meant turning my back on everyone who loved me.  This way of life led me to some very serious legal problems and two suicide attempts.  Eventually I ended being sentenced to 20 years in prison.  While in prison I continued living under my own understanding but in a very bad way.  I was living in a way that denied Jesus as the Son of God, denied His suffering and death on the Cross at Calvary, and denied His Resurrection.  The way of life that commanded these beliefs was the result of my taking of the Shahada and living as a Muslim.  Almost 13 years I lived this way and during this time I encountered the most stubborn group of people that were diligent and intent on sharing their love...Christians.  

On a Day of self reflection I sat looking at some some Christians just simply living.  In that moment I realized the contrast between them and me.  I was a terrible person, an empty person, a broken man.  I had to have what made them live and be joyful in the confines of steel and concrete.  I was going to have what the Christians had by any means necessary.  What was in their bible that was not in the Quran.  I had to find it and I wanted it.  So then I became friends with two filed ministers named David Ludwig and Brandon Authement.  After 4 months of study and reflection on 1st John, I approached Brandon and I told him that I was ready to surrender.  I was ready to give my life wholeheartedly to Jesus Christ after understanding and believing that what He did on that Cross at Calvary was done for me and it was done so that I can have eternal life with Him.  I was born again on June 30, 2016.

Today I live my life for the agenda of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.  Today I will proclaim to the world that the suffering, death and Resurrection of Jesus Christ is enough.  It is enough for me to be a child of God and an ambassador for God.  My prayer is that you will embrace what Jesus did at Calvary,  embrace the relationship in Him, and embrace the the life that comes with being surrendered.